The world is so much bigger than you and I. We are merely a speck on the rug of the world. Something that we can not see from far away, but when we focus in, we see it. We see the little things that we miss everyday because our worries overshadow them. The little things that we take for granted. Why am I worrying about a lost email? Why aren't I celebrating the fact that I am getting my education, my degree? It's something that those poor babies from SH will never experience.
I just wonder sometimes. We should be programmed with a switch that lets us be "in the now," be present for today, for that moment. Take it all in. Let it sink through our skin and into our blood where it can fill us entirely. So we can feel it. Everyday we breathe and walk and talk and dance and write and think and love and smile and cry, and these are things that makes us human. Alive. Something some people will never get the chance to experience again.
And when my day comes, one day, I want to be remembered for who I was and how I loved. And now, I want my students to always feel comfortable enough to call me their friend. I want them to grow and learn and let life guide them. I want them to fall in love and feel what a big love truly feels like, the hurt and the bliss. I want them to feel accomplished with every move they make or step they take. And I hope they never lay their heads down at night being fearful of the world.
Because this mass that we call a world sometimes feels as though it stops when tragedies happen, like it did last week. But, it doesn't. It keeps on spinning and people keep on surviving. Leaving some barely hanging on and some more alive than ever... and I am somewhere in between. And since we don't have a switch and sometimes the body feels too numb to realize those little things, I hope someday you feel it. Because when you do, you'll know. And hold on for dear life, because those moments..those really great moments of satisfaction are fleeting. So breathe them in deep. And remember.
"And I've lived at the end of what once was a beautiful world..."